LevixReader His Superior part 10 FINAL

If you like to listen to classical music while reading I have linked 2 songs that match my interpretation of the story for you to follow along with Just let them play through, it doesn't matter where they start or end.

1. www.youtube.com/watch?v=4UlJ69…
2. www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgaTQ5…



Tonight was the night.

I was sitting on the edge of my bed, it was mid-afternoon and the sun was gently warming my bare shoulders. My mind was wandering as I stared down at my hideousness. The bandages were gone and all that was left was a couple deep, bloodied channels that wrapped around my legs; I had chunks of my flesh missing in a spiral formation. The nurse had given me a pair of special bandage-like leggings that would hug to my form to keep pressure on the wounds while still allowing them to breathe; I pulled them on, flinching every couple inches.

When I was finished dressing myself I sighed; it was almost depressing knowing that I could never show off my legs again without revealing the horrible scars. I heard a light tapping at the door followed by a couple giggles; I said ‘come in’ and regretted it immediately.

Hanji bounded towards my bed, bouncing around on it for a little while before calming down and proceeded to sit beside me much to my displeasure. Erwin had followed her in, holding a large, blue box with a beautiful black bow on top of it.

For a moment I just stared at him, irritated until he handed the box to me. Hanji was finding it hard to hold in her exciting as she yelled, “OPEN IT ALREADY!”

As I lifted the lid and pulled out the material from inside I let the box fall onto the floor as the dress slowly unraveled until it hit floor length.

Hanji slapped both her hands to her cheeks as she gasped loudly. “It’s… so beautiful.”

“Would you both excuse me, please?” Hanji took her time but Erwin left quickly; when they were both out I locked the door and stripped off my clothes.

In a matter of seconds I was standing in front of my floor length mirror admiring just how beautiful my creation was. It fit to my figure perfectly and made me feel like royalty; it was flawless. I couldn’t imagine why in the world I was getting so anxious and excited for the party, I couldn’t help it, even though I’d probably end up stuck in a chair all night considering my injuries I was still unable to prevent myself from being overly enthusiastic.

I took off the dress and skipped to my bathroom mirror, a smile was plastered to my face as I began to apply my make-up. I put my hair up into an intricate bun and admired my handiwork; after two hours of staring into my mirror and making myself look pretty enough to wear a dress like that I suddenly felt how tired my legs were.

Thankfully I was done doing my hair and make-up and so for a little while I just sat down on the edge of my bed relaxing and doing a couple breathing exercises since my heart was racing a little too fast for my liking.

The sun was beginning to set when I decide to put the dress back on, I secretly wished that I could wear it every day instead of uniform; it was truly breathtaking.

Just as the world darkened I lit a few candles and stared down at my bare toes peeking out from under the beautiful blue fabric that caressed my sore legs. I stood up and made my way to my wardrobe where I pulled out the pair of heels that I was dying to wear. My eyes creased as I also pulled out a pair of flat shoes that would better suit my condition; I sadly put the heels away and promised them that I’d come back for them one day.

I stood up again to stare blankly at myself in the mirror; I couldn’t believe that the beautiful young woman I saw in the reflection was me… Suddenly I felt my excitement fall. Who was I kidding? I wasn’t excited for this stupid party, I was sad and my heart ached and my mind was filled with bloodied memories.

For a moment the whole world around me was silent and it stayed that way until I heard a sweet voice call for me. “(F/n)…” My heart began to flutter lightly to the sound of Levi saying my name. I adjusted my sleeves, blew out the candles and walked over to the door, opening it slowly; Levi just stood there, looking at me up and down as his mouth hung slightly open.

Sourly I joked, “Don’t let your eyes fall out.”

He cleared his throat to distract himself. “I’m here to escort you to the party.”

I smiled cheekily. “You’re here to drag me along.”

Only then did I realize just how handsome Levi looked; he was wearing a suit and blue cravat. He hooked his arm with mine and we slowly walked down the hallway, slowly but surely I began to hear orchestral music being played.

“They really went all out for you.” Levi looked down at me; I covertly wished I could have worn those heels just so I could match his height. As we slowly made our way to the old hall that had been cleaned out and refurbished just for a single party I could smell flowers and perfume that wafted through the air.

We approached the final door that would lead us to what I assumed to be a large group of people whom were eagerly awaiting my arrival; I stopped walking and froze. Levi looked at me, concerned but I brushed off my sudden anxiety and stepped forward.

It was as if time had stopped, just to let me take in my surroundings.

The hall had been painted pearl white and was accented with gold trimmings.

Everyone was dressed to the nines and by everyone I meant literally every soldier of the entire Survey Corps were squeezed into this massive hall and they were all wearing formal dresses and sterling suits; most likely trying to impress one another but I, of all people, was impressed the most. Ribbons laced the walls and on the stage a small orchestral band was playing sweet music.

It didn't take long for the whole room to look my way and cheer out. I pulled a sweet little smile, quietly thanking them all and luckily only Levi could tell that I was secretly regretting my decision to come along to this event; even if it was all for me.

I immediately scoped out the bar where they were serving drinks and after saying a few hellos I swiftly pulled myself away from Levi without him noticing; by the time he had noticed I was already far within the crowd, out of view.

“I want the strongest, girly-est looking drink you can conjure up.” I bitterly whispered to the barkeep.

With a gulp in his throat he handed me a tall glass of red icy liquid that had the scent of death lingering over it. I smiled to thank him as I chugged the whole drink down in one go; he just stared blankly as I gestured for another and another until I had already had a few to drink and so I asked for one final drink that I would walk away with the glass in hand.

I slowly pushed through the crowd, a bit dizzy from my intoxication, but I, like many war-torn soldiers knew how to drink heavy; I’d seen enough that a couple hard drinks never did me any justice. I wandered around aimlessly, avoiding anyone I personally knew; knowing that they’d want to speak and I was not in the mood to want that sort of thing right then.

I found myself suddenly outside, in the garden that branched off beside the hall; it almost seemed as if I had been forced through the crowd just to end up all alone. I sat down on the first bench I found and looked up at the night sky, letting my dizzy mind play with the stars as they danced around.

It felt like a long time had passed, I had sobered up a little, and when I heard footsteps approach me I closed my eyes to reconfigure my mind in case they wanted to speak; I didn’t know if the alcohol had affected more than just my eyes.

“What are you doing out here in the cold?” Levi’s tender but blunt voice spoke up.

I scrunched up my eyes tighter in hopes that my blurry vision could be healed by the action. “Being cold, what does it look like?” I was only kidding but when I felt his suit jacket be placed over my shoulders I felt a sense of relief; maybe I was actually cold?

He sat down beside me and so I opened my eyes to look into his.

“Why are you really out here?” His steely eyes made my heart race.

I sighed heavily, looking out over the moonlit garden. “A party was the last thing I needed. Now, I feel like I’m being celebrated for letting someone die.”

“You’re still beating yourself up over that?” Levi let out a ‘Tch’ and lightly pulled my chin to face him. “You’re being celebrated because you’re amazing.” Again, we shared a moment of silence as we just sat there staring into each other’s eyes. Our faces were so close to one another; I felt my body take control as I slowly leaned up to get closer to his lips.

“Have you been drinking?” Levi broke the moment, saving me from ruining my own plan of avoiding affection.

I leaned back, lifting up the empty glass in my hand and waving it teasingly in front of his face as if to say, ‘Isn’t it obvious’.

He sighed heavily, snatching the glass from me easily and putting it aside.

“I don’t like to see you this way.” His eyes caught mine again.

“What way?”

Suddenly his eyes were more than concerned. “Miserable.”

“I’m fine.”

“You always say that, I know you don’t really mean it.”

“I’m serious Levi.” For a moment we were both silent, I looked up to his eyes. “I’m not bad, I’m not good. I’m… fine.”

“You’re more than just fine.” His concerned expression changed to more of a loving one, a sweet smile graced his lips and his usually narrow eyes softened. “You’re incredible.”

It was as if his words meant something else to me. My cheeks blushed and I turned my face away from his to hide them but in one swift moment he had his hand on my cheek, pulling my face back to his.

Suddenly.

Unexpectedly.

It was like my whole world was lifted from the darkness, my soul felt eased and my smile was not my usual forced expression.

Levi’s lips were rested on mine delicately, our eyes closed softly and our bodies were held lightly together.

This was what I needed, I could feel it now. I didn't feel it anymore; the weight of the anchor that held me to the bottom of the sea of despair.

I let my hand comb through the back of his hair as his other hand wrapped itself around my waist to hold me closer to him.

He held me so tenderly, if he had let me go I didn't know whether I’d crumble to the floor or float away in the breeze.

When our lips separated our faces stayed close as our eyes never opened.

When we finally looked back up into each other’s eyes I could see it finally.

We had both been fighting the same war.

We both knew, deep down inside of us, that if we were to be openly in love then we would not be allowed to continue our lives together.

We had jobs to do, positions to fill.

But in that moment, we silently agreed.

No matter what, we couldn’t stop loving each other.

Even if we could never marry, or have children, we could be there for one another.

That’s all that mattered.

Love conquers all.

Even if I was his superior and he was my soldier.

Love is love and that’s all that will ever matter.



“I love you (f/n).”



With one last sweet smile, I whispered.



“I love you too, Levi.”